20 and love being country
Never thought a city slick like me would ever end up country. Loving the mud on my jeep and tires and chilling in the woods.
U know in the long run I really dont think I was ready to b friends with u again just yet :/ well bottles up
weird
idk i have no clue lately i just dont know i havent been i just dont know i havent been feeling myself lately ive been feeling weird i dont know y the only reason reason i put this on here is cause i can speak my mind
i feel like ive changed in many ways than one i feel different i feel weird idk y idk if its for the better or what i just feel like myself i fake a smile now and then so no one knows how i really feel. i feel like everything everyone is changing around me and i feel like im still stuck in the same place in the same position like i havent changed one bit i feel like im stuck like ive been paused i drink cause i feel like a heavy burden gets lifted of my shoulders and im free for those few seconds like i can do anything everyone tells me i can do anything but i feel like i cant like im stuck in pause not moving forward but backwards i sit out looking up at the sky thinking how come im stuck in pause not moving not changing like everyone else.
i feel like something is trying to burst out of me but im holding it back cause i dont wana know what it is im lost and confused about everything that happens to me they tell me everything will get better but i cant think of anything that has bettered me i have faith and confidence in my self for the future
but i just feel so lost and confused
i dont know y i feel this way……
i wish i knew y but i just dont im wishing someone can help me but i know no one can so im alone in this world with my own feeling i look after my family and friends before myself cause they all matter more to me than anything else putting them before myself never thinking bout me thats just how i was brought up to be and thats how i will always be no matter
i only wish that someone can help me with the way i feel but i know no one can help me with these feelings i have running my head so all i can do is just live and coupe with the feeling……
